Angela or David? David or Angela?

Okay so forget Nick. I texted him and he texted back and we had a short, pointless conversation and that was it. Um...seriously? Why are you going to ask a girl for her number and then not do anything with it? Wimp. Anyway it doesn't matter because I have moved on:) There's this guy David who I work with. I have been crushing on him FOREVER and I told him that a while ago but he was already in a relationship. So he just recently broke up with that other girl and then I got all excited. Things were going well between us and we were hanging out more. Then one night we got in a fight because I told him I didn't want to be his back up girl. You know? I didn't want to be the next girl in line just because he broke up with Katie. He was completely shocked that I would say that and he said he thought I knew him better and he couldn't believe I would think he is that kind of guy. So we decided to just be friends and get to know each other better before trying anything again. It's been about two weeks since that happened and I'm getting bummed and trying dating other people. Which is alright but I just don't click with any of them. Then one day my friend Angela told me that she had a huge crush on David and I was so surprised because she just broke up with her boyfriend of four years... the day before. And seeing as David and my situation kind of died out, I decided not to tell her that I liked him too. Big mistake. So Angela and David start hanging out and I'm getting all jealous. Then one night Angela calls me and is like, "Oh my gosh! Natalie! David and I kinda made out tonight!" And that sucked major. Especially because I had to play it off all cool like I was excited for her when I was really on the verge of tears. I ended up telling Angela everything and she felt so bad. However it felt so good to finally have gotten it off my chest. But then we were stuck in a new, even complicated situation. She liked him, I liked him, but we both couldn't have him. And we definitely didn't want this boy to get in the way of our friendship. But we both couldn't just give him up. We decided that we'd just go on as normal and wait to see who he chooses. That was all kinds of drama. But good news: he chose me! I went to his house one night and we talked all about Angela, and it turns out she kissed him but he stopped her because it felt wrong. And then I just told him that I still really liked him. And ever since then it's been going really great between us. And I talked to Angela about everything, and she's actually really cool with it and we are closer than ever!

So I am SO happy with the way things worked out and I am really in like with David :) :)
And Angela and I decided to move in together if I stay in Utah over the summer so we're going ot look at apartments on Saturday. I'm SO excited!

Cloud Nine...

Ok to begin with, I did run into Andrew. Oh geez the whole time we were talking I saw it coming so I tried to leave before he could get it out. But while I was walking away, he told me to come back because he forgot to ask me something. He wants to go on a date with me... and me being someone who is waaay too nice against her own will could not say no. However, despite his constant text messages I am managing to avoid him... hopefully until he forgets about our date... or some other miracle happens.
Anyway so the guy in the cafeteria is engaged. Embarassing huh. The stupid thing is when a girl is engaged she wears the ring so guys know she is off limits. But the guys don't have anything, so you can go and try to flirt with him and have no idea whatsoever that he is actually engaged to be married to some other woman! That can be awkward. But it's cool, I've moved on...

THE BIG STORY OF TODAY: THERE IS A GOD AND HE DOES NOT HATE ME!
So today at work it was SO slow so I was just sitting at the bar with a drink, and thats when it happened: Heath Ledger's TWIN walked in! I couldnt help but stare at him. He sat at the other side of the bar and kept looking up at me and smiling at me... gorgeous smile by the way- exact replica of Heath's. Then i started to get all excited and flirty and I smiled back at him. But, just my luck, this little blonde girl walks in and he gets up and gives her the longest, cutest hug. And then I got all mad because he was silently flirting with me when he had a girlfriend. So I tried to ignore him but I couldnt help but notice that he still kept looking up at me... so I decided to distract myself by actually working and I started to put all the chairs up. Out of no where I look up and he's walking toward me! I tried not to freak out because the bathrooms were right behind me and I was pretty completely sure thats where he was really headed. So I put my head down and got back to stacking chairs. And out of the corner of my eye I see someone start to help me stack the chairs and it was HIM! Ooh I could have just died! And he was like... I couldnt help but notice you at the bar, and he asked me if I had a boyfriend and if I lived in town and I said no to the first and yes to the second. Then he gave me his CARD and told me to give him a call!
a card... thats pretty sophisticated right!
haha....
Anyway so I'm on cloud nine right now with Heath's... I mean Nick's (thats his real name) number in my pocket! :D :D :D :D :D

Oh No!!

Andrew just texted me. Again. He said the next time he see's me he has something very important to ask me. And he said he thought it would be so much more "special" if he asked me in person and not over the phone! Oh crap I am scared now.... o man o man. It gets worse though! After that he said he thought I should know that he is not green. Um... EW! Why are you telling me this man??? O geez!! What do I do!

If there was one thing I could change about myself.... I think it would make myself less nice. I cannot say no to anyone! Iam a people pleaser.... I hate it! I have NO IDEA how to reject him..... especially not in person! O man....

And PS. Just in case you didn't know what the word 'green' meant... I thought I'd define it for the sake of making this blog more comprehendable.... green means being horny.

Ya, I know right.

its been a while...

So much has happened since my last blog I don't even know where to start... life's been pretty crazy! I guess I'll just work my way backward. So last night Karlissa and I went to the Jason Mraz concert.... it was AMAZING! SSSOOO much fun! and then yesterday at lunch my usual group wasn't there so I sat with my friend Scott (mentioned in earlier post....the one i almost puked on...we're like bff's now:) o the things that bring people together) anyway I sat with him, and my friends Aaron and Mike joined us and a kid named Andrew who I'd never met before. Now this was one of the most interesting lunches I have ever had. The whole time, and this lasted a couple hours, all four guys were hitting on me. I, being the only girl at the table, had no idea how to deal with this! They're all my friends so of course I stayed and joked around with them, but by the end of lunch I think they all had the wrong idea. Ever since then, Andrew has been texting me non-stop, he's sweet but a I don't feel that way for him. And Aaron! Oh my GOSH, he is calling me like crazy and saying the weirdest things.... like how he wants to cuddle with me, and go skinny dipping....awkward. Aaron has actually called me nine times in the last hour, and I am not exagerrating at all! I don't know what to do with that kid! Scott isn't so bad. He just always picks me up when he hugs me, and kisses me on the cheek. He's really flirty but not nearly as bad as the other two. Oh wait, man! It's Aaron again.... thats ten times in the last hour. Anyway, me and Mike just like to mess around but we know it's just for fun. And this whole time, I'm sitting there are lunch just staring at the guy who works at the register in the cafeteria... he is gorgeous, blonde, has an accent, and doesn't even know who I am. Why is it that I can get these four guys' attention who I am not at all interested in, but the one I really wouldn't mind getting to know, if he even remembers me, probably thinks I am mentally unstable. I always do the dumbest things around him and ask him the most stupid questions! One time I asked him to make me a sandwich, and he gave me this weird look and pointed to this HUGE sign that said "SELF SERVE". And I was just like...oh haha. But I couldn't find the bread.... so I asked him where it was, and he gave me another weird look, and pointed at my right hand, which was literally centimeters away from touching the bag the bread was in. It was so embarrassing, I felt like such a fool! Okay, now I really hope he doesn't remember who I am.... :( o geez. Well, other than that life has just been drama. Chalk full of drama. I swear, I was so excited to get away from high school and move on to a more mature way of life with more mature people.... but nope, I just moved on to a bigger high school. Even my work is full of drama. But whatever, I'm doing my best to stay out of it, and trying my hardest to deal with the stuff I can't get away from in the most mature way possible. It is a little ridiculous, but that's life right.

First Week: A Blur

So I have discovered that the week goes by hecka fast when you have different classes to go to every day and every night is like the weekend. I'm having tons of fun. My classes are awesome and the teachers don't seem too hard. It was kind of a shock when we started of the class with a prayer and we are to call our teachers "Brother" or "Sister" like we're in church. But as weird as it is, it's cool. I actually like being surrounded by people who share my religious beleifs... it's so much more comfortable. Anyway, I finally got a roommate, Ellie. (not the forementioned one from previous post, this is asian ellie) She's alright. The only issue I have is that she gets home from her work at one in the morning, and since I'm such a light sleeper I wake up every time. And she's pretty messy. Not the messy where her stuff is strewn everywhere, but everything is always so dirty. The sink is filled with old leftover food that cannot fit down the drain and her dirty dishes are overflowing. And the bathroom is disgusting. So, I'm just going to take it upon myself to clean the bathroom, and just try to ignore the dirty dishes and rotting food. Living on my own has definately brought out the neat freak in me. Anyway, I've decided I can't have any crushes on guys because there are just too many possiblities....what a dilemma. :) I really love the people here though, it's so easy to make friends. Even if you don't know someone they'll just come up to you and start talking. Like this morning, I went to the cafeteria to eat, and I'm one of few that has classes EARLY in the morning so the cafeteria was pretty deserted. Than this guy I've never met before saw me sitting alone and came and ate with me and BAM: new friend. He's cool though his name is Scott and he likes to give me compliments. Anyway, now I regret having breakfast because those mystery meat hashbrowns did NOT sit well with my stomach. So I had to leave Scott in a hurry so he wouldn't have to witness me puking everywhere. I'll be staying away from hashbrowns from now on. Anyway, tons of drama with friends but that's just life right. Going to the movies tonight! I'm excited. That's it for now. I have to go write some essays!

My New Home Away From Home

The Last Week Before School Starts

Ok....tons to catch you up on. This week was such a mix of emotions for me but it turned out to be one of the most fun weeks ever! Alright let's start from the beginning. So I was so excited to move into my dorm (wednesday), and since my roommate hadn't moved in yet, I got to pick my side of the room and move things around until I liked the setup. That night I was so tired it didn't even bother me to sleep alone in some foreign place. But the next day I didn't have anything to do or anyone to do anything with. So I decided to go buy some food and apply for jobs. I was really hoping that by the time I got back home my roommate would have arrived. But after getting everything I needed and returning back to The Plaza, still no roommate. So I just watched movies on my laptop and ate hot pockets for dinner, all by myself. So now it's friday, the day of orientation, which I thought was at ten. But I just wanted to make sure it was friday and not saturday so I called the school for info and they told me that orientation started at eight thirty and I had missed it! I was so sad!! So I still havn't met anyone and I still don't have a roommate and I missed my only activity for the day, so I went to do laundry. On my way back to my room, there were these girls running through the hall to catch the elevator. And then one of them yelled back to me, "hey are you going on the hike?" And I was like what the heck are you talking about?? So she told me that they were doing a hike as a part of orientation, so I dropped all my stuff and started running with them. Turns out they were running late and the busses were about to leave. And that's how I met Karlissa and Ellie. Karlissa and I clicked instantly and we've been almost inseperable ever since, and she lives in the room next door to me: bonus! We went on the hike, which was so much fun! I met TONS of people and started making friends super quick. Then after the hike we got a group of girls together to go clubbing. I was so excited! But it turns out the girl who said she knew where it was didn't actually know how to get there. So all ten of us literally piled into one of the girl's car and drove around to see if we could find it. We couldn't. So we were asking people left and right and everyone was giving us different directions and making us more confused! So we parked the car when we thought we were close and decided to start walking. And let me tell you, Salt Lake is a scary place to walk around in at night. There are so many scary people! But anyway, we walked for about an hour and we still couldn't find the place! We ended up in a super sketchy part of town front of a gay bar when we decided this wasn't a good idea anymore. But now we were really lost. So we looked for the nicest, clean cut guys we could find and asked them if they could give us a ride home. We decided that there were enough of us that if those guys decided to kidnap us we could take 'em. Oh my gosh, I was so tired that night but it was so hard to fall asleep because I couldn't stop thinking about the crazy things that happened to us that night! Anyway, saturday came and me and Karlissa went to the mall and we got matching stunna shades! Haha, they're hecka cool! Then we did a service project where we made hats for newborns, which was pretty fun too...I met even more people! That night we went to a game night, but after a while people started to get bored of the games so we turned on some music and turned it into a dance....that was SO much fun! But today I just went to church which was pretty cool, met even MORE people, and ran into a girl from one of my old high schools. But right now is lunch time and the only food I have left in my dorm is just a whole bunch of oatmeal :( and it's sunday so I can't go grocery shopping. Man, I guess i'm just going to have to deal with oatmeal. Anyway... school starts tomorrow!! Wish me luck!!

Last Week At Tiffany's

This week was pretty good. It went by fast, which was what I was hoping for. The new mormon movie is finally out in theatres which means I don't have to see the previews for it every two minutes! Yes! On monday I went to Ikea with my aunt and uncle and there was SO much stuff I wanted to get. Then Tuesday we went to cub scouts... we played frisbee golf, which was kind of fun until the boys started using me as a target. The rest of the week blurred past, mostly with shopping, reading, and finishing up last minute things for school and housing...blah blah blah. Today I just went to church but my usual affiliates I sit next to weren't there so I had to resort to sitting alone. And I sat on an empty bench as the room filled, and then this guy came up to me and was like "you're not reserving this whole bench for you six boyfriends are you?" And I laughed and told him he was ridiculous, and he sat next to me and continued to flirt quite horribly. He talked all of his friends to come and sit on my bench and I started to feel a little....well, boxed in, by desperate men of the singles ward. But they were nice enough so I thought I could manage to play along for the next two hours. Since I've been home from church, it's been raining hecka hard and it's expected to be continued through tomorrow. But I went running anyway like I usually do, and even though my uncle thought I was crazy for going out in the storm, I actually liked it very much. The rain kept me cool and it looked amazingly pretty against the street lights. When I was almost back to the house, the thunder and lightning started, it was so beautiful, but at the same time a little scary so I hurried back. That is all the excitement in life for me right now so stay tuned... next week is expected to be much more eventful! I am hoping to finally move into my place!

Just A Little Pathetic

Today... yet another slow one. However there is a story. It was about lunchtime when I was overly delighted to hear that we were going shopping. Our destinations only included Wal Mart, Office Max, and some craft stores; but I remained delighted nonetheless. Anyway... there I was, happily wandering through the craft store making silly jokes to my grandmother and my aunt, completely unaware of what was coming toward me in the aisle straight ahead. And then I looked up, and there he was: the first Utahn guy who was worth looking at. I couldn't help but just look at his face, and smile at him. Then, he smiled back, and his smile, was the most beautiful thing I had seen since entering the state of Utah. And then, he said, "How's it goin'?" And I couldn't do anything but smile back in a daze. It was the first time I had come close to some kind of interaction with anyone my age ever since I entered this horrible state. Let alone a gorgeous man! So there is still hope for me in Utah! Yes, I know, like the title says, I'm hecka pathetic. But how am I supposed to help myself when a gleaming ray of light at the end of the tunnel presented itself in the form of a beautiful man?!

Day 2: A Rant, A Long Rant

Today was an adventure. We decided to go and check out my new school and my potential home for the upcoming school year. The first place we checked out was the Plaza Hotel, which apparently has two floors that have been turned into student housing. Now when I first encountered the idea of living in a hotel, I thought it would be awesome! Free access to a pool, spa, clubhouse room, continental breakfast, and excercise equipment... pretty sweet. But when we went to talk to the manager, she basically told us that the whole hotel was of limits except for the third and fourth floor. And the rooms... well let's just say they're not exactly what I expected. I think I let my hopes get a little too high. But being a poor college student, I guess I must learn to accept the living of a poor college student. So I think I will just have to deal with it. After we looked at housing we went to the mall where I met up with Amanda! We just shopped around, nothing amazing. But it was fun. But as everyone knows, after a day of shopping one starts to feel exceptionally exhausted. So we decided to go into Victoria's Secret as our last store so I could get a slip to wear under my bridesmaid dress. But I only found one and it was not white, and I needed white! And a lady who worked there was determined not to let me leave the store until I bought something. Oh geez! She went to the back to check for things, she took me through the whole store to show me different styles of all types and form of lingerie, and then she showed me their magazine and things I could buy online! And all the while poor Amanda and Madeline where just wandering around the store waiting for me to be done. So I told the lady I didn't want anything and that I was just going to leave. She looked kindof confused, and just smiled at me and said to come back another time. Ha, sure I will. So we finally left the mall, just dying to get home. But I parked at the Hotel which was about four blocks away from the mall, and I really didn't want to walk all the way back to it. So I asked Amanda if she would give me a ride to my car, and she said yes of course. Poor Amanda... she didn't know any better. We started off perfectly fine. Found the hotel, but we couldn't turn into it because we were on the other side of the trax. So we continued down the road and we could not find anywhere to make a U-turn. And then we hit construction. So we made a right turn and every stoplight had a sign that said NO U-TURNS. So after about ten minutes we finally found a place to make a U-turn and I finally arrived safely at my car. Then I decided for the millionth time that I completely detest Utah, especially its HORRIBLE roads. AND THE NAMES OF THEM!! I CANNOT STAND the names of the streets! 145232456 west 968540 southeast??? What kind of street name? Bond Road. Now there is a good solid street name that just makes sense. Go to Bond Road. It just works! Stupid Utah. And the phrases. Oh do not get me started on their phrases! Oh my heck. A girl said that at the mall today. WHO says that?? UGH! Hecka. That is perfect. Not "oh fetch", NOT "oh my heck". Hecka. Now that is a phrase at perfection. So I have decided, in order to maintian my californian-ness, I am going to make sure that I include the word hecka at least once in every one of my posts. Okay so back to my day. So I made it safely to the Olive Garden where me family was eating, and my cousin Cayden (my new best friend mentioned in previous post) greeted my with the biggest, cutest smile and he just said "hi nally, I missed you". I could have died, it was the most adorable thing in the world. He is hecka cute. Hecka. Anyway, I went to Wal-Mart afterwards to buy a GPS and I happened to discover the cheapest bras I have ever seen, and they have cute ones, in my size-- total bliss. Then we saw Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, which was pretty good. But the lady in the back laughing the most hearty laugh she could muster was so much more entertainment. And now I am here. All in all: an adventure.

The First Day of My New Utahn Life

As of right now I am sitting on the couch in my new home for the month of August. We arrived here at about five in the morning and I have not slept at all in the past 28 hours. Well, except for the fleeting moment when I had just started to doze off while watching Madagascar with my cousins, and the two year old Cayden decides to pretend he's a rooster and crow in my ear repeatedly. He was NOT going to let me sleep because seeing as I'm his new best friend, I must spend every waking moment devoting my attention to him. But it is probably for my own good, for the reason that when I awake from a nap I am the meanest possible version of myself and there is nothing that I can do to stop the monster from being unleashed besides to not take any naps in the first place. So I won't complain. Anyway, the issue of my college education is just a tangled web that is getting more and more tangled just as fast as the first day of school is approaching. But besides that, I think once I am settled, my life as a Utahn will work out and I'm pretty optimistic about how it's going to turn out. Well, Cayden calls...