Oh No!!

Andrew just texted me. Again. He said the next time he see's me he has something very important to ask me. And he said he thought it would be so much more "special" if he asked me in person and not over the phone! Oh crap I am scared now.... o man o man. It gets worse though! After that he said he thought I should know that he is not green. Um... EW! Why are you telling me this man??? O geez!! What do I do!

If there was one thing I could change about myself.... I think it would make myself less nice. I cannot say no to anyone! Iam a people pleaser.... I hate it! I have NO IDEA how to reject him..... especially not in person! O man....

And PS. Just in case you didn't know what the word 'green' meant... I thought I'd define it for the sake of making this blog more comprehendable.... green means being horny.

Ya, I know right.

its been a while...

So much has happened since my last blog I don't even know where to start... life's been pretty crazy! I guess I'll just work my way backward. So last night Karlissa and I went to the Jason Mraz concert.... it was AMAZING! SSSOOO much fun! and then yesterday at lunch my usual group wasn't there so I sat with my friend Scott (mentioned in earlier post....the one i almost puked on...we're like bff's now:) o the things that bring people together) anyway I sat with him, and my friends Aaron and Mike joined us and a kid named Andrew who I'd never met before. Now this was one of the most interesting lunches I have ever had. The whole time, and this lasted a couple hours, all four guys were hitting on me. I, being the only girl at the table, had no idea how to deal with this! They're all my friends so of course I stayed and joked around with them, but by the end of lunch I think they all had the wrong idea. Ever since then, Andrew has been texting me non-stop, he's sweet but a I don't feel that way for him. And Aaron! Oh my GOSH, he is calling me like crazy and saying the weirdest things.... like how he wants to cuddle with me, and go skinny dipping....awkward. Aaron has actually called me nine times in the last hour, and I am not exagerrating at all! I don't know what to do with that kid! Scott isn't so bad. He just always picks me up when he hugs me, and kisses me on the cheek. He's really flirty but not nearly as bad as the other two. Oh wait, man! It's Aaron again.... thats ten times in the last hour. Anyway, me and Mike just like to mess around but we know it's just for fun. And this whole time, I'm sitting there are lunch just staring at the guy who works at the register in the cafeteria... he is gorgeous, blonde, has an accent, and doesn't even know who I am. Why is it that I can get these four guys' attention who I am not at all interested in, but the one I really wouldn't mind getting to know, if he even remembers me, probably thinks I am mentally unstable. I always do the dumbest things around him and ask him the most stupid questions! One time I asked him to make me a sandwich, and he gave me this weird look and pointed to this HUGE sign that said "SELF SERVE". And I was just like...oh haha. But I couldn't find the bread.... so I asked him where it was, and he gave me another weird look, and pointed at my right hand, which was literally centimeters away from touching the bag the bread was in. It was so embarrassing, I felt like such a fool! Okay, now I really hope he doesn't remember who I am.... :( o geez. Well, other than that life has just been drama. Chalk full of drama. I swear, I was so excited to get away from high school and move on to a more mature way of life with more mature people.... but nope, I just moved on to a bigger high school. Even my work is full of drama. But whatever, I'm doing my best to stay out of it, and trying my hardest to deal with the stuff I can't get away from in the most mature way possible. It is a little ridiculous, but that's life right.

First Week: A Blur

So I have discovered that the week goes by hecka fast when you have different classes to go to every day and every night is like the weekend. I'm having tons of fun. My classes are awesome and the teachers don't seem too hard. It was kind of a shock when we started of the class with a prayer and we are to call our teachers "Brother" or "Sister" like we're in church. But as weird as it is, it's cool. I actually like being surrounded by people who share my religious beleifs... it's so much more comfortable. Anyway, I finally got a roommate, Ellie. (not the forementioned one from previous post, this is asian ellie) She's alright. The only issue I have is that she gets home from her work at one in the morning, and since I'm such a light sleeper I wake up every time. And she's pretty messy. Not the messy where her stuff is strewn everywhere, but everything is always so dirty. The sink is filled with old leftover food that cannot fit down the drain and her dirty dishes are overflowing. And the bathroom is disgusting. So, I'm just going to take it upon myself to clean the bathroom, and just try to ignore the dirty dishes and rotting food. Living on my own has definately brought out the neat freak in me. Anyway, I've decided I can't have any crushes on guys because there are just too many possiblities....what a dilemma. :) I really love the people here though, it's so easy to make friends. Even if you don't know someone they'll just come up to you and start talking. Like this morning, I went to the cafeteria to eat, and I'm one of few that has classes EARLY in the morning so the cafeteria was pretty deserted. Than this guy I've never met before saw me sitting alone and came and ate with me and BAM: new friend. He's cool though his name is Scott and he likes to give me compliments. Anyway, now I regret having breakfast because those mystery meat hashbrowns did NOT sit well with my stomach. So I had to leave Scott in a hurry so he wouldn't have to witness me puking everywhere. I'll be staying away from hashbrowns from now on. Anyway, tons of drama with friends but that's just life right. Going to the movies tonight! I'm excited. That's it for now. I have to go write some essays!

My New Home Away From Home

The Last Week Before School Starts

Ok....tons to catch you up on. This week was such a mix of emotions for me but it turned out to be one of the most fun weeks ever! Alright let's start from the beginning. So I was so excited to move into my dorm (wednesday), and since my roommate hadn't moved in yet, I got to pick my side of the room and move things around until I liked the setup. That night I was so tired it didn't even bother me to sleep alone in some foreign place. But the next day I didn't have anything to do or anyone to do anything with. So I decided to go buy some food and apply for jobs. I was really hoping that by the time I got back home my roommate would have arrived. But after getting everything I needed and returning back to The Plaza, still no roommate. So I just watched movies on my laptop and ate hot pockets for dinner, all by myself. So now it's friday, the day of orientation, which I thought was at ten. But I just wanted to make sure it was friday and not saturday so I called the school for info and they told me that orientation started at eight thirty and I had missed it! I was so sad!! So I still havn't met anyone and I still don't have a roommate and I missed my only activity for the day, so I went to do laundry. On my way back to my room, there were these girls running through the hall to catch the elevator. And then one of them yelled back to me, "hey are you going on the hike?" And I was like what the heck are you talking about?? So she told me that they were doing a hike as a part of orientation, so I dropped all my stuff and started running with them. Turns out they were running late and the busses were about to leave. And that's how I met Karlissa and Ellie. Karlissa and I clicked instantly and we've been almost inseperable ever since, and she lives in the room next door to me: bonus! We went on the hike, which was so much fun! I met TONS of people and started making friends super quick. Then after the hike we got a group of girls together to go clubbing. I was so excited! But it turns out the girl who said she knew where it was didn't actually know how to get there. So all ten of us literally piled into one of the girl's car and drove around to see if we could find it. We couldn't. So we were asking people left and right and everyone was giving us different directions and making us more confused! So we parked the car when we thought we were close and decided to start walking. And let me tell you, Salt Lake is a scary place to walk around in at night. There are so many scary people! But anyway, we walked for about an hour and we still couldn't find the place! We ended up in a super sketchy part of town front of a gay bar when we decided this wasn't a good idea anymore. But now we were really lost. So we looked for the nicest, clean cut guys we could find and asked them if they could give us a ride home. We decided that there were enough of us that if those guys decided to kidnap us we could take 'em. Oh my gosh, I was so tired that night but it was so hard to fall asleep because I couldn't stop thinking about the crazy things that happened to us that night! Anyway, saturday came and me and Karlissa went to the mall and we got matching stunna shades! Haha, they're hecka cool! Then we did a service project where we made hats for newborns, which was pretty fun too...I met even more people! That night we went to a game night, but after a while people started to get bored of the games so we turned on some music and turned it into a dance....that was SO much fun! But today I just went to church which was pretty cool, met even MORE people, and ran into a girl from one of my old high schools. But right now is lunch time and the only food I have left in my dorm is just a whole bunch of oatmeal :( and it's sunday so I can't go grocery shopping. Man, I guess i'm just going to have to deal with oatmeal. Anyway... school starts tomorrow!! Wish me luck!!

Last Week At Tiffany's

This week was pretty good. It went by fast, which was what I was hoping for. The new mormon movie is finally out in theatres which means I don't have to see the previews for it every two minutes! Yes! On monday I went to Ikea with my aunt and uncle and there was SO much stuff I wanted to get. Then Tuesday we went to cub scouts... we played frisbee golf, which was kind of fun until the boys started using me as a target. The rest of the week blurred past, mostly with shopping, reading, and finishing up last minute things for school and housing...blah blah blah. Today I just went to church but my usual affiliates I sit next to weren't there so I had to resort to sitting alone. And I sat on an empty bench as the room filled, and then this guy came up to me and was like "you're not reserving this whole bench for you six boyfriends are you?" And I laughed and told him he was ridiculous, and he sat next to me and continued to flirt quite horribly. He talked all of his friends to come and sit on my bench and I started to feel a little....well, boxed in, by desperate men of the singles ward. But they were nice enough so I thought I could manage to play along for the next two hours. Since I've been home from church, it's been raining hecka hard and it's expected to be continued through tomorrow. But I went running anyway like I usually do, and even though my uncle thought I was crazy for going out in the storm, I actually liked it very much. The rain kept me cool and it looked amazingly pretty against the street lights. When I was almost back to the house, the thunder and lightning started, it was so beautiful, but at the same time a little scary so I hurried back. That is all the excitement in life for me right now so stay tuned... next week is expected to be much more eventful! I am hoping to finally move into my place!

Just A Little Pathetic

Today... yet another slow one. However there is a story. It was about lunchtime when I was overly delighted to hear that we were going shopping. Our destinations only included Wal Mart, Office Max, and some craft stores; but I remained delighted nonetheless. Anyway... there I was, happily wandering through the craft store making silly jokes to my grandmother and my aunt, completely unaware of what was coming toward me in the aisle straight ahead. And then I looked up, and there he was: the first Utahn guy who was worth looking at. I couldn't help but just look at his face, and smile at him. Then, he smiled back, and his smile, was the most beautiful thing I had seen since entering the state of Utah. And then, he said, "How's it goin'?" And I couldn't do anything but smile back in a daze. It was the first time I had come close to some kind of interaction with anyone my age ever since I entered this horrible state. Let alone a gorgeous man! So there is still hope for me in Utah! Yes, I know, like the title says, I'm hecka pathetic. But how am I supposed to help myself when a gleaming ray of light at the end of the tunnel presented itself in the form of a beautiful man?!